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Sunday, 18 November 2012

I'll be okay but just not today.

hola amigo.
ok, I think it's been quite some since I last blogged. I've been pretty busy and lazy too. haha. so yeah, I apologize for that. and, this blog post will pretty much be a blog post full of rants. wanna know what I'm gonna rant? stay on and read. if not, there's this 'X' on the top right hand corner of your browser, click it and you'll say bye to my blog. ;) 

- disclaimer -
the names are all covered up to protect the identities of the people involved. the photos are all genuine, I did not photoshop it or whatever shit. 
p/s; I think I'm kind enough to cover up their names.

thanks to me,
the fight started when I sent this screen shot to my class group ;


this tweet is tweeted by one of my classmate/friend/ex-best friend. well, she's pretty much hated in my class I would say. I don't understand what she want la srsly. I helped her when the WHOLE class was against her. and now what? tweet about me not inviting her to the chalet? eh please, even if I invite you, you want go meh? you got time meh? AND, I SAW YOU POSTING A PICTURE OF THE MOVIE TICKET FOR " AH BOYS TO MEN ". you watch your movie, I party at my chalet. fair right. tweet about me for fk? oh, own gang? I remember having 7 other members in my gang, not like 10+ please. want tweet about me also get the facts right first la.  

and then I was being blame the shit out of everything just cause I invited other people from other classes to the chalet. eh idiot, if your bloody classmates cooperate, I need grant their access to the chalet meh? you think I don't want have an official 1E1 chalet meh? even if they are not there, the amount of people there will be so god damn little. you like it ah? the more the merrier. that's what I always think. 

we lost you.
apparently after the fight last night, I lost one of my clique members. and, this was what he posted in our facebook group;


great job, Mellisa. you've been keeping a hater in your clique for the past 9 months since you separated from your previous clique. I don't mind losing a clique member like him anyways. he has been telling us that he prefers his primary school friends more. if it's that case, go find them and stop complaining about how suckish we are. junyuan suck? I got your message. if you really hate it that much, TRANSFER OUT. nobody is stopping you.

fights after fights. 
and then this morning, I started another fight. how great can I be ? -.-
let the pictures speak la ok.

SS 1.

SS 2.

so yeah, this classmate of mine, went and provoke me this morning. eh, you think fun ah?! ask him reply, he gave me a ' LOL '. fk you asshole. you think you funny? and eventually, he left the group. 
#EXPECTED.

I think I'm out of my mind.
I went and told my boyfriend what happened and he started scolding me so I think I was like buay song or something. so I sent this to him ;


I THINK I WAS BEING POSSESSED OR SOMETHING. WHICH GIRL IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULD SEND THAT TO THEIR OWN BOYFRIEND. NO ONE RIGHT.
I think I broke his heart when he read that message. I mean like, if people send me that, I think I'll be in tears already. I'm seriously sorry though.. I know a sorry can't 'repair' the damage I've made but well, I sincerely apologize.

I'm sorry. :/

life? I think I'm about to give up on it.
the past few days, I've never really smile or felt happy. I'm practically...... SAD. 
my relationship isn't progressing AT ALL. I think from the sweetest couple, we've become the couple with the most fights. the worst part is, I feel neglected and ........ not loved anymore.. I'm about to collapse. I feel as if the whole world has crumbled onto me. I go to bed every night thinking that tomorrow will be a better day but has it become a better day for me? NO! 8th month coming soon. what has happened to glennisa? is it gonna end .......... ? frankly speaking, I don't know........ :'/ 
well, there's no doubt that I still love him but yeah there's this huge distance between us and I can't take it anymore. I tried to close one eye to the distance that I feel but I can't. it's a fking fact that it's there.
yes, I'm mentally hurt and I'm about to relieve it by ..... physical pain. 

"HOLDING ON BUT BARELY BREATHING."

that's all for now I guess.
peace out yo. :') xx
p/s ; I couldn't continue typing this blog post cause I was getting pretty emotional. 





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