stay home monday.

booooooooooo, 

i'm sick on the first day of the week.

ok not really sick but well, i'm on MC for today due to an eye infection (i swear my eye hurts like a bitch). i'm typing this while crying hahahahahahaha nah jk it's just that my eye can't stop tearing :(

 anyways, mid-year exams gonna start this friday (kill me now please) and it's gonna end on 16 May ok wtf can someone just really kill me now. as usual, i'm already planning what to do after examinations hahahahaha.

Happy Birthday xx

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yay my baby is a birthday boy today :'D
happy 14th birthday my love.
hey baby,
i know by the time we're gonna meet and celebrate your birthday, it'll be like 2 weeks later. i know it's damn long omg and i can't see you for 2 weeks. i'm gonna miss you truck lots (a lot la hahaha). after our examinations, let's go on a eating and maybe shopping spree (this one maybe you'll be bored la hahahaha xD) ok? who cares about weight anyways hahahahaha i mean like, whether you're fat or slim, i'll still love you :b when you're a year older, that means its gonna be my turn really soon to add one more year to my age. yeah, basically i can only feel really younger than him for 2 days but it's kinda cool that our birthday is just two days apart x)
YEAH YEAH YEAH, i know we both are taurus and maybe some people will be like " a bull + a bull = quarrel everyday " uhm for your info, we both are more loving than you'll ever think. we may quarrel at times but we both are still very loving yo :'D

so there's this really cute guy that captured my heart.
389 days back, we got together. ever since then, he has been a really nice, sweet, caring and wonderful boyfriend. he makes me smile everyday without fail. he might be irritating and naggy at times but that's because he cares. he likes to tease me till i ask him to stop cause i'm SHY. yes i'm shy. -covers face with my hands- hehehe. he knows that my eye is in a really bad condition right now and is worrying like there's no tmr. uhm yeah, this person is none other than my baby.
baby, i hope that you'll stop worrying about me and focus on your examinations.

happy birthday once again baby.
all the best for your papers.
may all your wishes come true. xx

i love you baby.
hugs and kisses,
your princess. xx

he's my happiness.

 23/10/2011,
we got to knew each other.

04/11/2011,
the first time that we got together.

15/11/2011,
a misunderstanding broke us apart. the misunderstanding was left unexplained till our fairy tale had the chance to start afresh.

?/02/2012,
I realized something. 
I never really stop loving him. I hid my feelings till one day I realized that I'm always smiling at the thought of him. (bet I look like a retard hahaha)

?/03/2012,
my feelings for him gets stronger as time passes. I realize that all I wanted was him. no one else.
if I had the guts to tell him that I really wanna be with him. (sadly I don't have it -sighs-)

basically, that's on my mind 24/7 when I didn't get together with him. (YET. :b)

04/04/2012,
life is full of surprises.
YES. HE FINALLY CONFESSED.
I was like asdfghjkl happy but sadly, something happened.

05/04/2012,
the fact that we were 'siblings' at that point of time almost crushed me cause he told me that we shouldn't be together. I told him that I had feelings for him too but soon, things got REALLY awkward between us. we didn't talk much after that till the next day.

06/04/2012,
he told me that he was gonna give up cause he thinks that 'siblings' shouldn't be together. I told him I wouldn't give up and yay for me, he changed his mind.

06/04/2012 10.23pm,
"GLENNISA" is created. God gave us the chance to get back together.
probably one of the greatest thing that happened to me throughout the 14 years of my life. <3

" true love never dies. "
this relationship wasn't an easy one. MANY obstacles were faced during the past 12 months. tears shed, wounds form, wounds heal, scars left behind, scars heal, laughter made and smiles seen on our faces.
first obstacle was my parents finding out the relationship and objecting to it. I got punished, freedom was never part of me. but the greatest thing is, the relationship did not end. the relationship progressed on. he would find time to look for me after my training. the relationship got stronger and stronger. slowly, people began to envy our relationship. the love between us just keeps on increasing, WE WERE IN LOVE.
04/08/2012,
we both gave our first kiss away. probably one of the best day in our lives. it was a really romantic day. <3
soon, trouble came. he started to flirt and cause great damage to the relationship but the relationship didn't end. I NEVER blamed him for flirting. I know other girls out there might not be able to tolerate their boyfriend flirting with other girls. yes, he made a grave mistake but I chose to forgave him. WHY? cause he deserve a second chance. I trust that he would change. and yes, he did change. for the better.
not long ago, our relationship hit rock bottom. it was almost beyond salvation. that one thing that kept us together is, OUR LOVE. yeah, the love between us is really strong. it won't break just cause someday someone just decides to wreck us.  
obstacles after obstacles.
there were so many obstacles that we faced. at some point of time, I almost gave up.
BUT, with him showering me with love and pampering me whenever he can makes me feel that it's worth the stay. he made me the happiest girl on earth. :')

" perfect. "
a boyfriend that never leaves me despite being really angry with me. a boyfriend that gets angry with me but wouldn't bear to ignore me. a boyfriend that knows what to do when I'm angry. a boyfriend that knows when I'm angry or sad. a boyfriend that apologizes after every fight even though if I'm the one who started it. a boyfriend that spam me with sweet messages when I'm overseas. a boyfriend that cries with me whenever I cry (so sweet right). a boyfriend that tickles me cause he knows that I'll whine and curl at the corner and then tease me. a boyfriend that gives me surprise kisses. a boyfriend that gives me tight hugs. a boyfriend that will hold my hand in the mall to make girls jealous. a boyfriend that is not afraid to express his love for me in front of his friends. a boyfriend that take pictures with me even though he really hates it (he really loves me omg <3). a boyfriend that puts my happiness as his priority. a boyfriend that really cares. a boyfriend that will make me laugh like there's no tomorrow. a boyfriend that makes me smile and then says how good I look when I smile (I'll blush hehehe). a boyfriend that listens to my rants. a boyfriend that guides me to the right path. a boyfriend that is my pillar of strength. a boyfriend that never despise me.
and most importantly,
a boyfriend that loves me more than anything else. <3
glenn tang jie xian, my perfect boyfriend, I love you. :*

" all I need is you. just you. "
hi my perfect boyfriend/qtpie love/hubby/stupid egg/pigoala/baby/happy pill,
ok yeah he has many names. :b (all given by me hehehe) anyways that's not the point hahaha.
first of all, ok let me be a little old skool.
THANK YOU MY LOVE FOR EVERYTHING. yes, everything. (tbh i can never thank you enough for all that you've done)
I'm at lost I don't know how to start this (I shy la ok -blush-) :b
so...

hi my love,
today is our one year anniversary. yay yay yay to our 12th month. <3 :'D
this 12 months wasn't easy for us cause the fights gets more and more serious. serious till the extend that break-ups were being mentioned. but what is break up to us? nothing. why? cause it doesn't exist in our dictionary and it's not in the future that we planned. ;) <3
thank you for all the love and support you've given me. you changed me and now I'm a better person compared to who I was in the past (i think hahaha). :b
thank you for being such a qt. making me smile and laugh every single day. ok maybe sometimes you'll make me angry or sad but it's okayz cause every time after you make me sad or angry, you'll make me happy again. :'D
I know there are times when i'm raged till a pretty scary stage i would say hahaha but nevertheless, you still manage to cool me down and cheer me up. :') you're one of the few that ain't afraid when i'm angry and the ONLY one that can cheer me up (you're unique ok hehehe)
thank you for being my emotional support (my pillar of strength yo :'D) whenever i wanna rant, you always listen to it without complaining. whenever i cry, you'll hug me and comfort me (best feeling on earth omg <3)

baby, 
you're srsly a really really wonderful boyfriend. you're that one gift from God that i really cherish and love a lot. I never ever wanna lose you. I've lost you once and that's more than enough. you might not be my first boyfriend but i want you to be my last. (yes i'm selfish but that's because i srsly love you) without you, i'm just like someone in a dark cave without any light source. you're that one light that brought me out of the dark cave. i need you, i really do. always remember that no matter whatever mistakes you make, i won't blame you. (this one i sumpah and you can trust this sumpah ok hehehe)
we've planned about our future and i'm sure it'll happen. the happy ending of glennisa. i know it's not gonna be easy but i'm sure it'll be worth it. glennisa is a really important relationship in my life. i don't want it to end. glennisa is a important relationship but without you, it's nothing. really nothing. you're a really really important person ok baby. :*
last but not least,
I LOVE YOU.
3 simple words to say in a relationship but the toughest to show and prove it.
10 years down the road, i would wanna walk down the aisle with you at the end of it and say " I do. "

we might not be the sweetest couple,

or even cutest couple,

nah jk, we are (personal opinion ok hehehe)

happy one year, my love.

i love you. X

what's the point of being yourself when you're gonna get judged, anyways.

people always say to be yourself.

but then again,

are you sure you will not judge me for who I really am?

I know SOME of you out there might think that I'm acting like a total pathetic lil girl in this blog post to gain attention or sympathy.

but then again,

have you ever think why I'm behaving like this?

well, I'm SICK and TIRED of showing my true self.

when I show my true self, there's bound to be someone who will go all like 

" you're a bitch. " 

" stop flirting. " 

" you're not popular. "

ok just wtf. I'm just done with all your insults.

" stop flirting. "

srsly?! srsly?! srsly?!

from primary school till now, I'm being called a flirt.

ok put the primary school dramas aside. now I'm in secondary school. I thought that as the older we grow, the more we'll learn (i can't say about maturity cause age doesn't define maturity) but i guess I'm wrong. utterly wrong. what's wrong with being friendly to my guy friends? what's wrong with joking around with them? what's wrong with hanging out with them after school (it's not as if i'm the only girl right)?
I HAVE A BOYFRIEND.
what for to flirt? (don't assume that i flirt when i don't have a boyfriend in the past please)
besides, I know my line and I make sure I won't cross it.

" you're not popular. "
ok this is just one of the insults i got recently.
WOW. a big wow for you hun.
since when did i say i was popular? since when i acted like i was popular? since when did i became popular anyways? frankly speaking, i don't think i'm popular. i'm just another ordinary girl you'll most probably know.

" you're a bitch. "
yeah I have to admit that at times I'm a bitch.
it's simple,
i'm a bitch if you're one too.
for those people who don't know me but judges me, let me tell you this,
I can be a really really nice person to you if you're nice to me but one day if you decide to be mean and start hurting me, I'll hurt you twice as hard as you hurt me (nah jk karma will settle you). tbh I don't really have hatred in me. it's just love (thanks to my baby boy la duh <3). I don't hold grudges for long. I can be angry for you for maybe a few days but once i sort out my thinking, I'll put past aside.
yeah that's just ...
me, mellisayong. 

ok to that person who asked me that question on ask.fm, this blog post is for you.
to that someone,
before you ask me that question on ask.fm anonymously,
have you ever thought of my feelings? maybe a few hours after sending that question to me and not getting a reply, you might think that i deleted your question. what if you don't see me in school for 6 days and you realize your question was sent in 6 days ago? will you have a sense of guilt? or you would be jumping for joy that you got rid of me? if you think it's a joke, well, think again.
it's not and never will be for insults like this.

p/s; to the people who cares about me and after reading my blog post you think i'm gonna do something stupid, calm your tits. i'm fine, don't worry. x
-mellisayong, xx 

" stay strong. "

" smile. "

smiling even when you're broken is just an example of how strong you are as a person.

it might hurt at first but as time passes, the wound heals. smile and let the losers that hurt you see it. it kills them to see you smiling even though they've hurt you before. 

trust me, you're stronger than you'll ever think you are.

" can you laugh at the same joke again and again? no? then why are you crying over the same guy again and again? "

why cry over the guy that hurt you countless number of times? does he even give a flying fuck about you? no, isn't it? never shed tears for him. he don't worth your time/tears/love. yes, he broke your heart but what can you do about it? why not think of it this way; 

every time a guy breaks your heart, you're one step closer to your happily ever after and meeting your prince charming that'll know how to treat you right. love isn't a destination but a journey. a journey that has lots of obstacles but well, it may be stormy now but it can't rain forever. 

it's gonna hurt eventually but it will be worth it.

every mistake made by you teaches you a lesson. learn it and never fall for a jerk like him again.

stay strong, princess.

xoxo

I just don't feel good.

have you ever feel so fucked up that you don't even know how to describe it?

" just somehow I feel so fucked up the past few days. "

I don't know how should I explain it. it's just as if I have a knot in my heart that can never be untied. 

fucked up, sad to say this but yeah, it's just me. I'm fucked up. I can never accept who I really am. I'm never pretty. like seriously. I'm not trying to get attention or whatsoever. but well, that's just how I feel about myself. I'm hyper and that's why people are always irritated by me. I'm really hyper and no, I'm not hyperactive. I get so hyper that I start irritating people. wild? yeah, it's in my blood. I'm born this way. 

story of my life.

and today I went out with a group of friends. so I decided to be an ass and started sending messages to this guy that is said to be known to like my best friend. I don't know what the hell is wrong with that guy. he just started calling my best friend bitch and some not so nice names yo. 

like wtf. lulz dude, you ruin my best friend's day. I hope you get killed in a fucking car crash. or maybe karma should just hit you hard in your face with a chair. 

now I feel so guilty D:

gaaaaaaaaaaah fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck la I'm such a meanie :(

I swear I feel damn moody the past few days. phone got confiscated. like wtf then teacher never give me chance but got give other people chance in the past. kns unfair much?

time for a good bye yo.

till then. xx